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Oct. 27th, 2020 08:42 pmI'm trying not to worry about "creating content"...I was in survival mode with art for so long that I didn't even realize that I've been so...so burned out??
I graduated from art school in 2014 and ever since then it's just been a big "WELL...what're you doing? What're you making? How are you justifying all those years of school?" and I would try and try and try to say I was working on something, I had goals, I was working towards a project. But really I was panicking, I was trying to survive, I was forced to try and use the only thing (art) that I've ever been able to stay passionate about, to try and scrape enough money up to not die? It sucked, it's sucked so bad. Giving a shit about algorithms, drifting apart from friends because I just can't keep the fuck up?? It sucks.
So whatever...Maybe I don't need to be working towards some big project. Maybe I can just make things for me to enjoy? Not worry about the con circuit (tho Covid kinda did that for me tbh;;) I'll just work my "boring" receptionist job and draw dumb bullshit for me. "Are these characters from a project? A webcomic?? A portfolio piece??" Hell nah man, they're just a bunch of weird little dudes vibin and maybe kissing??
I just wanna make stuff I wanna read,,,without thinking about if someone else will like it. I always wanted that, and I hate that I was forced to forget that.
I graduated from art school in 2014 and ever since then it's just been a big "WELL...what're you doing? What're you making? How are you justifying all those years of school?" and I would try and try and try to say I was working on something, I had goals, I was working towards a project. But really I was panicking, I was trying to survive, I was forced to try and use the only thing (art) that I've ever been able to stay passionate about, to try and scrape enough money up to not die? It sucked, it's sucked so bad. Giving a shit about algorithms, drifting apart from friends because I just can't keep the fuck up?? It sucks.
So whatever...Maybe I don't need to be working towards some big project. Maybe I can just make things for me to enjoy? Not worry about the con circuit (tho Covid kinda did that for me tbh;;) I'll just work my "boring" receptionist job and draw dumb bullshit for me. "Are these characters from a project? A webcomic?? A portfolio piece??" Hell nah man, they're just a bunch of weird little dudes vibin and maybe kissing??
I just wanna make stuff I wanna read,,,without thinking about if someone else will like it. I always wanted that, and I hate that I was forced to forget that.
